Diapers and feedings can be outsourced to a nanny or a babysitter. Teaching them about the sometimes-harsh world around them is a job that only a parent should do.
You don’t need to spend money to make them happen. You don’t even have to leave your house.
To a person with children, that sentence can actually be pretty terrifying.
As strange as it may seem to someone who isn’t in a similar situation, my house didn’t feel “alive” anymore.
The reality is that there are plenty of times when we, as adults, need to get away from the kids in order to steal a few sobering moments to ourselves.
Ugh! Why would you make him kiss me like that!?
Surely he’d talk by three. When three came and went, it was surely four. It was a never ending cycle of “everything will be different next year.”
I’m not writing this to simply tell the story of seeing the world through Olivia’s eyes, but also about accidentally making her see the world through mine.
Chris’s death devastated me. Even now as I write this 13 years later, I have a hard time expressing my feelings about it.